today i was talking to a friend about life things and she reminded me that it’s OK that i know what i want and to not settle for less.
which in this case means realizing that i am better than a fallback/standby for a dude, and better than someone who doesn’t put me first (which maybe he doesn’t even like me but if he doesn’t then he needs to just GTFO and stop hangin’ out)… and so for now i am just going to stop asking him to come to things and be part of what i am doing because i don’t need someone who is going to waffle around about it.
and i don’t need someone who isn’t going to be impressed that my name was in the sunday new york times and who can’t even figure out life and who doesn’t think i’m pretty (because i might not be to everyone but i should at least be to someone who i am hoping to date) or at least doesn’t say he thinks so.
and i don’t need someone, just anyone, because when i do have “someone” it is going to be someone who gets my sense of humor and who doesn’t care about spending every snowy weekend in the mountains and who understands my love of electronic dance music and who might even dance along even if he thinks it’s silly. and he might be better at some things than me and i might be better at some things too and sometimes we’ll be even steven and it’ll be just how you want to spend your life with someone else.
but i’m not going to spend time on people who clearly don’t have time for me so BYE.
i am better off at home alone with my chair.
the secret life of walter mitty is one of the best movies mostly because i am walter mitty